Breathe
By María Alatriste
The end of the year is a mixture of knowing that we have to let go so that our future can come. However, many times this waiting for the future is accompanied by uncertainty. It reminds us that what we seek in the coming year may only be the pursuit of an illusion, because even if we achieve all the things we want, it does not necessarily give meaning to our existence and we remember that in the vastness of life there is nothing we can control.
At the beginning of this 2024 that we are almost leaving behind, I set the sole purpose of having a life living more in the present. This is because I realized that setting many goals is not necessarily synonymous with peace. Even some aspirations that are too high can only become unsettling. If I was able to achieve some of them, they were accompanied by a passing satisfaction that made me return to the same place and ask myself the same question as always: What am I looking for?
Life can seem like a place to experience many things, to achieve many goals. I have been a restless soul and have been able to do some things. But it always seems that this search for a consolidated happiness did not come. It didn't come through achievement, through success, through failure, through marriage, and not even through motherhood. Because I realized that it brings us a lot of love and joy, but it doesn't necessarily mean the meaning of life.
This 2024 I understood that all the answers were in my microcosm; all the answers I already had and had always been inside me. It's funny because I just released a book on motherhood that took me three years to write, but that's not the answer either. Right in this book, before I turned in the final manuscript to the publisher, I closed it by saying that there were many things I had to work on about myself in order to better understand motherhood and the transformation it brings. In some of the conclusions of the book I stressed that one of the priorities was to go in search of spirituality. But even I didn't know where that would take me. It was an unknown path and, to a certain extent, somewhat trite in the social discourse.
Despite all that I had gained through yoga, physical exercise, therapy and multiple holistic activities, I felt that something was missing. I felt that my life was fine, but that I could not connect with my source, with what we call soul, with what we call God.
In one of those, wandering around the Internet, I saw information about someone called Master Oh. Something caught my attention, but I am usually very skeptical. However, my curiosity pushed me to go further, so I decided to get a Qi treatment directly with this Master from South Korea. When I entered his center in Mexico City, I saw many luminous people, and I had the opportunity to talk to this enigmatic character with whom I felt an inexplicable peace, an unprecedented connection with my essence immediately, a calmness that I had not felt for a long time. Just what I asked for at the beginning of this 2024. Each person finds what resonates with them, and for me finding this tool for meditation and spiritual practice made me feel that I had found what I was looking for.
For the same reason, this year I have so many things to be thankful for. Among them, thanks to Opinion 51, for being part of this special year. Thanks to Areli Paz and Soledad Durazo, women I admire very much, for the opportunity they have given this woman, mother, writer, entrepreneur, to write about her experiences, knowledge, concerns and her way of seeing the world in motherhood.
The opportunity you have given me to write in this very personal format has kept me connected to my higher purpose and the love that comes from doing what we truly are.
I want to continue writing this coming year about the topics I deal with in my most recent book on motherhood, about the labyrinths in it that lead us to find ourselves. So if the universe wills it, we will continue to meet.
See you next year. I wish, alluding to José Saramago in his book The Elephant's Journey, "that we end up where they are waiting for us".
The opinions expressed are the responsibility of the authors and are absolutely independent of the position and editorial line of the company. Opinion 51.
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